Struggle at the Altar

It’s been a week here at the Meritt household. We had a short trip to Hershey, PA over the weekend and come back into a busy week at the hospital. Our Hospital has been letting go of staff to meet budget constraints so everyone is on their toes. Each wave of layoffs seems to leave a little more devastation in its wake. Like Jesus’s disciples at the Last Supper, we keep asking, “is it I” who’s next?

So that’s cause for some worry. And a whole lot of it. It’s thrown our household into a bit of s funk. And then this verse pops up in our feed. Perfect!

Because it’s exactly what I need to hear this morning. A reminder. Don’t worry about anything. Do you remember the God you serve? Do you remember the vastness of His riches of His grace and mercy, that God rules over all and we are His children? We think we are powerless to change anything, but when have we ever had power that He has not given us, sufficient for His needs?

And how do we receive that power, through prayer, petition, and thanksgiving. We present our requests to God, and He chooses whether to deliver in a time that He in His wisdom seems appropriate. It will never be too late, or too soon. And don’t forget that God weans us from those things that take us away from Him. If your job and your sense of security in that job is taking you away from God, is He not obligated to wean you from that job, so that your security is in Him?

I’ve been in several churches. Pastored them and shepherded them. But I’ve seen this at work in my own life. When life seems good, and my sense of security and joy has been in the success of the church work I was doing, something would happen, and force me back to the altar of prayer. I get conceited sometimes, and think of myself more highly than I ought. God has always made sure to take me down a few notches and remind me of who I am and who He is.

Which is why I find myself in this very humbling role as a Chaplain. It’s not what I want, but it’s what I need at this time in my life. God willing, I will be here until God has something else for me to do. I struggle to be content, but I am getting better at it. Sounds like I need to spend some more time at the altar of prayer. 😁

Well, that’s all for this morning. God bless you and and I hope today will be a great day in the Lord!

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I've been in ministry in the Christian Churches/ Churches of Christ for 20+ years. Finished my doctorate in Biblical Studies in 2015. Serve today as a Hospital Chaplain.

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